I Am the Drug You Can't Deny

"I have no time for lies and fantasy, and neither should you. Enjoy or die..." - John Lydon

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Oct. 21st, 2009 @ 01:31 am

It's been forever since I even looked at this. But I needed to say congrats somehow. So congrats. We both moved on permenantly and I think that's great.

Forgive and forget, that's the stage i'm at.

God bless

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Jul. 28th, 2009 @ 11:16 pm

How can someone and your feelings for that person change over just a year?

What a bitch...

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Jan. 20th, 2009 @ 08:19 pm

It should be a sin to be this happy...

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Jan. 6th, 2009 @ 02:16 am

:-)

I've fallen hard. Thank you so much. Who knew this could go so well?

Je t'aime. Et merci pour ton amour.

Sigh, this is great.

And burning a bridge? Second best bridge I've ever burned.

Beyond joy-ful ;-)

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Dec. 24th, 2008 @ 10:55 pm

:-)

Shit's running well.

The joy is full in my life.

No complaints.

That's the least emo I've been on LJ in a while... someone bake me cookies...

kthanksloveyouallbye

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Dec. 16th, 2008 @ 03:17 am

I find it sad that I had to hook up with someone else to get completely over you.

But now I show no remorse or regret. 10 months wasted.

Have a good life.

Please put the joy back in my life......

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Dec. 4th, 2008 @ 02:57 am

Sigh

It's been a month. I put money on a week.

And your his.

It'd just be easier if you'd just tell me then me to actually confront you about it. cause I hate when you play like it's all okay and there's nothing different.

When I have learned so well how to tell when something's different.

Xmas present is already ordered. So you'll get that. You won't hear from me after that though.

Could've worked. And you know it. That's the worst part.

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Nov. 18th, 2008 @ 11:22 pm

Are you mentally retarded?

Like, you must be.

Cause I've told you never to contact me again.

Yet you did.

So you must be.

kthanksbye

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Nov. 5th, 2008 @ 12:46 am

So.... I'm smiling

I give it a week?

Ya, a week.

I'm setting myself up again. But we'll see what happens.

Oh, and on another note, did everyone know that when one candidate takes 300 or more electoral votes, it's counted as a "blowout" election?

Ya, suck one McCain.

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Oct. 30th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

Last night was the first ever time I wished you were upset and things would go wrong for you.

He's a douche, you'll realize that soon enough.

For me, there would be no promises, no comprimise. Cause to me, you're perfect. I don't need to change you to be happy with you.

But fuck it. You always loved the assholes. So God bless. I need to walk away. And that fuckin' sucks, but it's not like you ever wanted it any other way..... apparently.

A mon avis, tu es parfait.

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Oct. 22nd, 2008 @ 02:16 am Wishful Thinking

I wish you knew.

I wish you knew that I'd give anything to be him.

I wish you knew I only thought about how tonight would've been if you were a part of it.

I wish you knew how I truly felt.

I wish you would've just come to me and leave him when I said it.

I wish I had the power to make you feel this way.

I wish you were here.

I wish you were mine.

I wish...... therefore, I hurt......

Don't stop sucking me in
Making me come back to you
No one will ever compare
Will ever be better, better, better than you.........

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Oct. 13th, 2008 @ 03:59 pm

I don't hate you.

It's the complete opposite that's the issue.

But you just walk away from the conversation.

So I consider him very lucky.

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Oct. 5th, 2008 @ 02:24 am

Life keeps getting harder each and every day.

This was by far some of the worst 48 hours I've recorded here at GMU.

I don't even know what to do anymore.

I need someone to hold. I need someone to relate with. I need someone.

But I don't know who.

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Sep. 16th, 2008 @ 01:08 am

What is there to do when both of them want you too?

The truth is I miss you, but I don't want to wonder if I missed out on her.

Fuck

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Aug. 29th, 2008 @ 02:26 am

So, I've got some truth serum in me.

But anyways.

You make me so happy when you text me. Even happier with 2.5 hour phone calls. So why do they happen then stop? I don't understand. Give me a sign. I've got so many compliments, but do I say them or not?

You're gorgeous.
You make me so happy.
You're wit and sharp tongue make me fall all over myself.
I think about you all the time.
I miss you oh so much.
I wish you here.

This sucks, but, I know it's worth it. Follow your instincts. I've followed that this whole time, so I'll stick with it. Let's see where it leads.

I miss you.

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Aug. 15th, 2008 @ 12:34 am

Your smile
Your laugh
The way you walk
The way you joke
Your playful scream
Your miscolored eyes
The text messages I used to get nightly and your name showing up on my phone
The photos on my phone from you

But most of all,

The way you can keep me on my toes.
I tease to flirt. Most girls just take it. And that's how I know it would work
With you
You return it.
You're the first one who can keep up with me
Can keep me on my toes.
I don't know.

I hate the ones that are different.
They leave an ever-lasting impression.....

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Aug. 6th, 2008 @ 11:24 pm

I don't know if I should allow myself to decide my own crushes.

The last one killed me cause I had to leave when it started getting good.

This one will do the same.

Like, why can't it be easier? This time I'm actually taking a chance and trying to make the first step, but everytime I do, it gets thrown back at me. Like, really? I need help.

Help, or a nice brunette....

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Jun. 16th, 2008 @ 11:47 pm

sigh

I don't know what to think anymore...

Maybe I'm just in the way? I don't know.... I just can't forget about you....

Two months..............

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May. 25th, 2008 @ 11:48 pm

So

I've decided I'm not meant to be happy.

Took her ten days. Ten days to forget about me and move on.

Heh, and I thought she was gonna be the next one.

I'm sick of being really nice to people... gets me nowhere...

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May. 9th, 2008 @ 01:03 pm

Welcome to wherever you are...

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